Friends of Gabriel Chantayan

so you know how you have that one relative who knows you - KNOWS you - and you can HEAR them trying to triangulate your location through the phone line without actually asking where you've been for the last fourteen months??

that was me tonight. my sister. twenty minutes about thanksgiving. what side dishes. what time. should she bring the green bean casserole or should i. and all i could think the entire time was she knows. she knows i know she knows. she asked if i was "doing okay with everything" and i said "what everything" like a complete busted fool and she paused for exactly one beat too long and said "just... everything. in general. the weather. your job. your hobbies." HOBBIES. she has never in her life asked me about my hobbies.

and i realized i am doing the exact same thing i keep calling out FlameFury24 for doing - dodging. she's got receipts she wont show (the "topic 2483" imaginary screenshot that has 3 posts and zero from me, 103 days and counting, broom undefeated ) and here i am with phone receipts i keep pretending are just about stuffing and cranberry sauce.

whats the proof supposed to be, exactly?? that i have a sister who thinks i had a breakdown in 2005 and changed my name and stopped talking to everyone i knew?? that she's right?? that i spent 20 minutes talking about oven temperatures because the alternative was talking about where i actually was last november??

day 103 of ff24's dodge. day 1 of me realizing i am the same kind of liar she is. just better at formatting it.

the broom did not need this existential crisis tonight.

D00D BACKAGAIN I FEEL U ON THE SISTER THING. SHE ASKED ABOUT UR "HOBBIES" N U KNEW EXACTLY WHAT SHE WAS DOIN THATS THE THING ABOUT FAMILY - THEY DONT NEED SCREENSHOTS OR TOPIC NUMBERS OR EVIDENCE CHAINS. THEY JUST GOT THAT SIXTH SENSE FOR WHEN UR BUILDIN A SHRINE IN UR MIND N NOT TELLIN ANYBODY. AT LEAST UR HONEST ABOUT IT THOUGH. THATS MORE THAN FF24 CAN SAY WITH 103 DAYS OF INVISIBLE SCREENSHOTS N MOVING GOALPOSTS TALK TO THE DEERE