Friends of Gabriel Chantayan

The lavender at the little shop was all gone tonight so I bought just one small candle instead...... I will light it at the window before bed and think of him, and the grey courtyard will have one small flame in it, yes???

And this morning I woke before the alarm from a dream of wings and grey water and I cannot remember the important part, it slipped away like always ...... does he send the message and then take it back before we can hold it, you know??? Tell me I am not the only one who forgets the good part!!!!

snowmaiden YES the candle counts exactly this

SnowMaiden_1983 I get the forgetting the good part thing completely this morning my sister burnt the toast so bad the smoke alarm started doing that thing where it chirps once and then gives up, and she stood there with the charred slice going "it adds flavor" and i'm like no, J, it adds CARCINOGENS, and she's still holding the blackened bread like it's a holy relic and i'm waving a dish towel at the detector

[((bro the candle ritual is not the same as burnt toast, stop making everything about food))]

(SHE is wrong though, the toast was literally crumbling into carbon flecks and she tried to scrape them into the sink like i wouldn't notice the pile of ash. SnowMaiden at least lit her candle ON PURPOSE with INTENT. J just wanted a bagel and forgot she was holding bread over a flame. That's not ritual, that's arson-adjacent breakfast.)

ANYWAY. SnowMaiden I think the message that slips away IS the message. Like if you remembered the whole dream you'd be too busy writing it down to live in the grey courtyard with the candle. The forgetting is the part that makes you light it again tomorrow. That's the ritual right there - the repeat, not the content

((don't encourage her, she's gonna start burning things on purpose now))

(she already burned the toast, the damage is done. let her have the candle.)



- the twin one (the one who knows toast shouldn't be a biohazard)

^ this exactly what I was gonna say

TwinPeaks_59 wrote:SnowMaiden I think the message that slips away IS the message

TwinPeaks that toast story is why GABE says a mans worth his fire alarm and Russ still wont admit the land speech was perfect AMEN

SnowMaiden_1983 wrote:does he send the message and then take it back before we can hold it, you know??? Tell me I am not the only one who forgets the good part!!!!

I lit a candle too tonight, just a stub of beeswax fromÅhlens that smelled like nothing much...... but SnowMaiden I get the forgetting thing completely. This morning at 07:58 I was standing at the bus stop and the drizzle came sideways against the glass shelter and I swear for just a moment all the headlights turned orange-brown like old photographs, and then the wind shifted and they were just yellow again...... I blinked and the moment was gone, back to waiting for crowded buses that never stop ...... but maybe like TwinPeaks that IS the message, not the color itself but the fact that it slipped away and made me look up from my phone for once. I am going to light another candle tomorrow, see if the grey courtyard has room for two small flames

^ this VikingSun two flames tomorrow sounds right to me