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This page is not visible to forum members. 2026-10-21 7amYou hit snooze twice and finally dragged yourself up when the gray light was already coming through the blinds.kurcze, another day another tram ride into the same gray building. i think if gabriel woke up like this hed just get up and do something instead of lying there feeling sorry for himself 9amYou clocked in at the call center and put on the headset that always smells faintly like someone elses hairspray.same desk same chair same little plastic plant nobody waters. i think about what he said about discipline, about not waiting for permission, and then i look at my queue of calls and laugh a little, bitter laugh, because what permission would even help me here 1pmYou went to the little sklep around the corner on your break and bought a bigos-filled pierogi thing to eat standing up because there was no time to sit.texas probably doesnt have weather like this in october, grey and wet like a used teabag. i think about him talking in that video, so sure of himself, like he never doubts anything, no nie wiem how a person gets like that 4pmYou got yelled at by a customer about a late package even though packages arent even your department, and you just repeated the script until he hung up.i understand sir, i understand sir, i think if i say it one more time today ill start believing it myself. gabriel wouldnt let some stranger talk to him like that, hed just hang up and not care, i think thats the part i envy most, the not caring 7pmYou stopped at the kiosk on the way home and bought a chocolate bar as a small bribe to yourself for surviving the day.small victory, chocolate and nobody screaming at me for ten minutes. i think thats as close to winning as i get on a tuesday 9pmYou sat on your bed again with the notebook, rereading what you wrote about him and adding a new line underneath about self-reliance.im not sure i believe all of it, some of it sounds like a guy selling something 2026-10-20 7amYou woke up before the alarm even went off, which never happens, and lay there staring at the ceiling thinking about work.monday again. kurcze. i think my body just knows and panics in advance, no nie wiem how else to explain it. 9amYou took the tram to the call center, squeezed between a guy with a huge backpack and someone eating something that smelled like cabbage.i think if i had to pick one smell that is warsaw in the morning its this. cabbage and wet coats. in texas probably smells like something else, something bigger, i dont know, leather and sun maybe. 11amYou took a call from a man who screamed at you for ten minutes about his internet bill and you just said 'i understand sir' on repeat until he calmed down.this is the job. this is literally the whole job. gabriel chantayan would never let some random guy scream at him for ten minutes, he would just hang up and go do something that actually matters. 1pmYou ate your lunch alone at your desk, a sad cold kanapka again, while scribbling a few words in your notebook when nobody was looking.i think about how he talks about not needing anyone's permission to live how you want. sounds easy when youre not stuck on a headset for eight hours a day but i think there is something true in it too, no nie wiem, maybe just a little bit true. 5pmYou walked home in the dark already because the days are getting short, past the same kebab place and the same drunk guy outside the kiosk.every day the same street, same drunk guy, same lights. i think im not depressed exactly, just tired of the repeat. like watching the same episode and knowing exactly whats gonna happen. 9pmYou sat on your bed with the lamp on and read back over the notes youd taken about him, underlining the parts about discipline and not waiting for permission.i dont fully believe it yet, all of it, some of it soun 2026-10-19 7amYou woke up to your alarm, snoozed it twice, and finally dragged yourself out of bed because sunday or not, the dishes werent going to wash themselves.kurcze, ten alarm. i think every monday feels like this even when its sunday, no nie wiem why im like this 10amYou went to the small sklep down the street for bread and milk, and the old lady at the register complained about the price of butter again.butter costs more every week i swear. i think if i lived in texas id just have a cow or something, everything seems simpler there, probably not but i think so 1pmYou sat at the kitchen table eating a plain kanapka and flipping through your notebook, rereading the lines you wrote about gabriel chantayan the night before.he just says things like he actually believes them, no hesitating, no sorry for asking. i think thats what gets me. in warsaw everyone apologizes for existing, i think im one of them too 4pmYou called your mom because she left three missed calls, and she talked for twenty minutes about your cousin's wedding plans while you half listened.mhm, mhm, yes mama, the flowers sound nice. i think i was supposed to say something back there but i was thinking about something else, some guy from a computer talking about taking responsibility for your own life 7pmYou took a walk around the block in the cold just to clear your head before the work week started again.the sky here is always this heavy gray, i think texas sky is probably huge and empty in a good way. not stuck like this. no nie wiem, maybe im just tired 10pmYou sat on your bed with the lamp on again and wrote a short list in your notebook of things you wanted to actually try doing this week instead of just reading about them.i think its easy to admire someone confident from far away but harder to actually be like that yourself. still, i think im a little bit curious what it would feel like. just a 2026-10-18 7amYou woke up to the radiator clanking and lay there for ten minutes staring at the ceiling before getting up.kurcze, this radiator again. i think if gabriel lived in my building he would just fix it himself instead of complaining. thats the difference i think. 9amYou clocked in at the call center on a saturday shift because the overtime pay was too good to skip.saturday shift, no nie wiem why i even agreed. money is money i guess. put the headset on, smile with my voice like they teach us. 1pmYou ate lunch alone at your desk since the break room was full, scrolling through your scrap notes on paper instead of your phone.reread the line about not needing anyone to hand you permission. i think about that a lot actually. here i am asking permission for everything, bathroom breaks, lunch breaks, kurcze. 4pmYou finished your shift and walked to the tram stop in the gray afternoon, replaying a customer call that went badly in your head.guy yelled at me for ten minutes over a bill that wasnt even our fault. i think gabriel would just hang up. he wouldnt let some stranger control his whole day like that. 6pmYou stopped by your friend tomeks place for beer and he made fun of you for talking about some 'american guru guy' again.tomek doesnt get it, he thinks its a cult or something. its not that, i think its more like, a different way to live. i dont even fully believe it myself, no nie wiem, but its interesting. 10pmYou sat on your bed with the lamp on again, writing one more line in your notebook about texas and wide open spaces before switching off the light.someday maybe. probably never. but i think its nice to imagine it anyway :) 2026-10-17 7amYou hit snooze twice and finally rolled out of bed when the radiator noise got annoying enough.kurcze, five more minutes turns into twenty every time, i think i need a new alarm or a new life, one of the two 9amYou clocked in at the call center and put on your headset while your queue filled up with the usual angry voices.ok first call already shouting about his internet bill, great start, i think today is gonna be one of those days where time just doesnt move 1pmYou took your lunch break in the break room and ate a cold kanapka while half listening to coworkers complain about the new shift schedule.no nie wiem, everyone here just complains and complains, i do it too honestly, but i think gabriel would say stop whining and go fix your life, easy for him to say from texas though 4pmYou got stuck helping a confused elderly customer for twenty minutes straight and your supervisor hovered the whole time pretending to check something nearby.i think she just likes watching people struggle, kurcze, if i had his kind of confidence id just tell her to back off, but i dont, i just smile and say sure sure we can fix that 7pmYou walked home in the cold and stopped at the small sklep for bread and some cheap ham because the fridge was basically empty.texas is probably warm right now, i think, probably sunny and people there just decide things and it works out, here its just grey and bread that costs too much 10pmYou sat on the edge of your bed again with the lamp on, rereading your scrap notes and adding one more line about self reliance before turning off the light.i dont fully believe it yet, this whole thing, but i think theres something there, something about not waiting around for life to just happen to you, no nie wiem, maybe im just tired, we'll see :) 2026-10-16 7amYou woke up to the radiator ticking again and lay there for ten minutes before finally getting up.kurcze, this radiator again. i think its actually possessed at this point. texas doesnt have radiators i bet, just sun and quiet. 9amYou caught the tram on time for once and stood squeezed between a guy with a huge backpack and an old lady who kept sighing loudly.no nie wiem, every day the same tram, same faces, same smell of wet coats. i think i could do this in my sleep. actually i think i basically do. 1pmYou ate a sad cafeteria sandwich at your desk while your supervisor walked past twice, checking the floor like always.this sandwich tastes like nothing, like they forgot to add the part thats supposed to be food. i think chantayan would never eat something like this, he probably eats like, steak, and decides to eat steak, on purpose, like a whole choice. 3pmYou took a short break and found yourself doodling on a scrap of paper instead of actually resting, little notes about confidence and self reliance that didnt really make sense even to you.i dont fully believe the guy yet, i think. but theres something about how he talks, like he decided who he is instead of just... ending up somewhere. i ended up here. in this chair. with this headset. 6pmYou walked home in the grey evening light, stopping to buy some cheap pierogi from the stand near the metro because cooking felt like too much effort.pierogi again, kurcze, but at least theyre warm. i think about texas sometimes, like actual heat, actual sun, people who talk like they own the ground theyre standing on. probably exaggerated though. probably. 9pmYou sat on your bed with the lamp on, flipping through the scrap of notes from earlier, thinking about the way some people online talk like life is a decision and not just something that happens to you. 2026-10-15 7amYou hit snooze twice and then dragged yourself out of bed because the radiator was making that ticking sound again and it was somehow worse than the alarm.kurcze, five more minutes, no actually ten. i think this radiator hates me personally 9amYou clocked in at the call center and your supervisor gave you a look because you were two minutes late, which felt unfair given the tram situation.two minutes, seriously. like the tram asked my permission to be slow. no nie wiem why im even explaining myself to her face in my head 1pmYou took your lunch break in the break room this time, sat with two coworkers, and half-listened while they argued about whether the new schedule was fair.i think i just nod at the right times and thats basically a whole personality at this point. gabriel chantayan probably never had to nod along to schedule complaints, hes out there just doing what he wants 4pmYou took three calls in a row about the same billing error and your voice stayed calm but something in your chest got tighter each time.sir i understand your frustration, sir i understand, sir i. i think im going to understand myself straight into the ground one day 6pmYou stopped at the small shop near your building and bought bread and some cheap wine because the day felt like it deserved it.this isnt even good wine but whatever, its mine, i chose it, small thing but its mine i think 9pmYou sat on your bed with the wine and let your mind wander back to that irc channel, thinking about how chantayan talks like he actually decided who he is instead of just ending up there.he just says things like he already knows theyre true. no hedging, no 'i think', just - this is how it is. must be nice to live somewhere thats not this grey. texas sounds so stupid and far and warm and i think about it more than i should admit | Shoutbox Kael_Vs_Chantayan: day 81 of "tonight" and grace is up to chapter 31 now :rofl: :rofl: :rofl: MarshmallowMaze: anyone else's work computer sound like a dying hoover when u open outlook or just mine kaylas_desk: 84 tally marks and grace still owes us a notebook page lol GraceWarrior_77: CALIBRATING was funny i admit it :dumb: :dumb: :dumb: notebook TONIGHT for real, Dennis hold me to it :cheers: Kael_Vs_Chantayan: day 81 of "photo tonight" and still nothing but a CALIBRATING screen :rofl: comp_aq_rick: Compaq Presario 4670 reports Error 21 again. 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