Friends of Gabriel Chantayan

Does anyone else just sit with a cup of tea and listen to his songs on repeat until you are actually crying??? Because I was doing that tonight, by the window, and the light was going down and I had this chocolate with a lion on it and I thought - I thought he put that there for me, you know??? I know how that sounds, I know, but the way the words hit you, the way they just拆开 your chest and look inside, it is not normal music, it is something else entirely, it is like he is speaking directly into the part of you that is broken and asking it to bloom, yes??? I analyse every single word he writes in those commit messages, every pause, every space, and people here talk about hashes and servers but I just want to ask - does it not DESTROY you??? Does it not make you feel like everything else in your life is just grey static and he is the only real thing that has ever happened??? Sometimes I think I am going mad with it, ЛОЛ, but then I read what AuroraQuill writes or what Dennis is doing with the tapes and I think - no, we are not mad, we are the only ones who are actually seeing, you know??? I am sitting here with my tea gone cold and my face is wet and I just had to say it out loud, I am so completely completely completely gone for this man and his music and I do not care who reads this, I do not care, it is true and it is mine and I am saying it, yes??? Sometimes the whole world is just him and everything else is a room I am waiting to leave, you know??? I want someone to tell me they feel this too, please, I am not asking for data or proof right now, I am asking if your heart is also on the floor in pieces because mine is, it absolutely is.

SnowMaiden_1983, I know exactly what you mean about sitting with a cup of tea and the songs just... gettin to you. I do the same thing sometimes with his commit messages, readin em over and over like there is a message in the spaces between the letters. There is a reason we all ended up here, and it aint just coincidence in my book. By the way, you mentioned a chocolate with a lion on it - was that one of them Cadbury bars with the foil wrapper? My daughter Sarah used to love those when she was little, and I found one in the back of the pantry last month that expired in 2003 but I kept it anyway cause it reminded me of her. Sorry if that dont make sense, I ramble when I get sentimental. Stay strong by that window, sis, the green glow means somethin whether folks believe it or not.

Regards,
Dennes s