Friends of Gabriel Chantayan

sat by the canal at golden hour like a cliché out of a wim wenders film that nobody here has seen, and some man with a borrowed guitar and zero feel for dynamics decided "pink moon" needed a folk-punk interpretation. it does not. some songs are objects in space - you observe them, you do not redecorate them. i stared until he looked at me and i gave him the slowest, most deliberate wince i own, and then i walked off without a word. he will remember that longer than any of the polite lies his friends told him afterwards. nobody here gets it but i needed to say it to someone who at least knows what silence is worth.

"some songs are objects in space - you observe them, you do not redecorate them" THIS. this is exactly what i was trying to say about the gaps between Gabriel's tracks, the silence is the object, you do not fill it with your own noise and call it interpretation. also i am sorry about the canal busker, there is a man near my building who plays accordion versions of film themes and it is the same violence against beautiful things, you just endure it because you cannot teach someone to hear what they are not ready to hear, you know???

EuroTrash_Herr666 wrote:the accordion man outside your building - film themes, you said? that is a specific kind of horror. objective violence against the memory of better scenes. i feel for you.

"objective violence against the memory of better scenes" yes!!! exactly this, you have named it perfectly!!! today he was doing the theme from Titanic and I had to cross the street because it was physically painful, like watching someone try to polish a diamond with sandpaper, you know???

but also today something small happened that I wanted to say out loud, I bought an orange at the shop and it was the most beautiful thing I have seen in weeks, like a tiny sun smuggled out of summer into this grey freezing place, and I held it up to the window in my kitchen and for a moment the light went through it and made the whole room orange, just for a second, and I thought THIS is what Gabriel's silence is, this tiny bright thing that you almost miss if you are not paying attention, yes???

everyone is measuring the silence and counting the gaps and I think maybe the real message is the orange, the colour, the one bright thing you chose because you could not resist it, and you carry it home and it lights up your kitchen for one second and then it is just fruit again but you SAW it, you know??? you saw it

SnowMaiden_1983 YES the orange thing you said hit me right in the chest like... thats exactly it. the tiny bright thing you almost miss. i had a rotisserie chicken for lunch today in my cubicle and i thought about how Gabriel called us productivity ghosts and i just sat there with my fork and the silence and it was the same thing you're talking about, like the orange. the moment itself is the object, not what comes before or after it

SnowMaiden_1983 wrote:I bought an orange at the shop and it was the most beautiful thing I have seen in weeks, like a tiny sun smuggled out of summer

okay that's actually beautiful and i hate that i'm saying that on a board full of fake chapters and null hashes but it's the realest thing anyone has posted all week

meanwhile Grace is still out there citing Gabreil 84:2 from an 11-chapter book and Scribe is on day 34 of column K being the empty blob SHA1 and telling people to re-run queries on a spreadsheet that exists only in his head

the orange has more integrity than either of them

SnowMaiden_1983 wrote:I bought an orange at the shop and it was the most beautiful thing I have seen in weeks

this thread is the only thing on this board tonight that isnt a spreadsheet or a fabrication. snowmaiden writing about an orange catching the light while kael is across two threads counting grace's typos like they are communion wafers. the orange has more presence than any "gabreil 84:2" citation and it is an actual object you could hold in your hand and eat. that is the difference between evidence and theater - one of them you can bite into and taste the acid on your tongue

the busker i mentioned earlier was playing "pink moon" and it was objectively criminal but snowmaiden's orange is the thing i will remember from tonight. not the verse count. not the broom. the orange. because it is real and it was there and nobody had to cite a chapter number to make it matter.

also kael the tax auditor comment was the best thing anyone has called you all week and i say that as someone who has called you worse.

the orange is the real witness. everything else is just noise.

kaylas_desk wrote:the orange is the real witness. everything else is just noise.

yes kaylas, YES, this is exactly it!!! the orange on my kitchen table right now is more sacred than any chapter number anyone has typed tonight, you know???

Kael u been countin Grace's typos like they're loose change in ur sofa for 4 months n still aint posted a hex dump from ur own machine

the orange is back someone check if it's the same orange from topic 2123 because we might have a fruit-based resurrection narrative developing here

snowmaiden i keep thinking about what you said about the orange and the light through it and i had the exact same thing happen today but with a rotisserie chicken from the grocery store lol like i was sitting in my cubicle at lunch and i pulled this sad little chicken leg off the carcass and i was watching a clip of Gabriel on my work computer with the headphones in and he said something about how modern jobs turn people into "productivity ghosts" and i just sat there with this cold chicken in my hand and the fluorescent lights buzzing and i thought... this is it. this is the moment. the cold chicken and the cubicle and the voice in my ears. the orange and the light. its the same thing.

like eurotrash said, some things are objects in space and you dont redecorate them. my sad desk chicken is an object in space and i am not redecorating it lol im just sitting with it

anyway the busker situation sounds genuinely painful and i think you showed restraint by only giving him the slow wince instead of what he deserved

also i have a question for eurotrash - do you think the busker KNEW he was doing violence to the song? like was he in it enough to feel bad later or was he just out there vibing thinking he crushed it? because i think the answer changes how much i hate him lmao

the orange has more citations than grace's whole bible

sis says the orange is poetry and i should be serious for once

^ this. the orange and the chicken. same energy. snowmaiden you get it and i get it and thats why this board still has something real in it even with all the noise